The Beautiful And Damned (Compulsion)

First of all, this is February 1st 2013.
I've been tied on a college schedules and stuff this past weeks, and I can't even connect my brain to write some post :x


Lately, I've been so serious along the way. Even though I must say, it's kind of a good thing for me to fight for my grades and increase my GPA that being lowered by the mother of I don't know what. I'm hating it very much for the fact how could this happened?
I'm fully concentrated on my achievement, my goal. I've been busy on tasks and doing absolutely everything. Until I felt so empty inside and hardly even sleep.
And I'm really crack for heaven sake! I had this damned compulsion I couldn't help to stop!
It must be some anxious triggered me in my unconscious. I must say if you are one of the person that realized your over thinking skills, well then this things could happen.
Speaking of which, it's some kind of symptoms that related to anxiety. And fyi, anxiety is a crap that you need to cut! Besides for me, physiology class made me noted that this has something to do with the transmissions of dopamine in my brain, which is poor.
I wanna bitching this things to you because this is important. Your mental health is your central of universe, and don't give a damned add ons after the beautiful you. This I will not lecture you, but I'm just having an intention to share just so you know.
Anxiety has a several types, if you feel something like severe uneasy moment that you're not even know the reasons then it might be Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Another kind of anxiety is Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, which is a kind of unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make you feel driven to do something (compulsions).
Even though I'm kind of referring the relations between over thinking with some types of anxiety, but you must underline that you are only in this if you have several symptoms needed to diagnosed you. If you a movie freak you might find one of those disorder on it, you can learn how it works on people, there're so many, either way everyone is having google on their side, so...
Well back on me, I'm none of them (disorder) (I hope so)
But I will if I'm just keeping this on track and not significantly stop. DO NOT involve your activity contaminated by the Vicious Circle from anxiety. Note that.
Oh, but by the way, referring to my studies, if you have something in mind, maybe you keep over think about something and your brain need to explode it to someone, then you can ask me, to share or maybe to just talk about it. And you could find me anywhere I supposed, care to help you.


“She was incomprehensible, for, in her, soul and spirit were one - the beauty of her body was the essence of her soul. She was that unity sought for by philosophers through many centuries. In this outdoor waiting room of winds and stars she had been sitting for a hundred years, at peace in the contemplation of herself.” 
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned


Lovelove,
- D